Note To You

You don't get it.

Just go away.

You don't want to know.

Just let it be.


I don't want to talk.

Be quiet for a while.

I don't want to laugh.

Be realistic for once.


It's not supposed to be fun.

Don't you get that?

It's not supposed to be easy.

Don't be naive.


I've fallen into a hole.

But I don't want out.

I've gone completely numb.

But I don't want the pain.


That's as much as I'm explaining.

I'll say no more.

That's as much as you'll ever know.

I'll let you assume the rest.
                                                                                             
Promise to always....

Smile    Be Happy   Look at the bright side   Be selfless

                                  Be Yourself.

Long Random Post

Note: This is basically just me rambling. If you don't want to listen to that (and I don't blame you if you don't) then I suggest just skipping over this. ;)

I'll give it to you straight: Life is so freakin' confusing. You have so many questions that you want, that you need, answers to. Who am I? Why am I here? What should I do? Where should I go? What's right? What's wrong? How can I fix this? Why do I always mess up? How can I be perfect? Why did this happen? Why me? Does anyone care? Does God exist? If He does, does He care? Does He think this is some big game? What does the future hold for me? Will I ever get over my past?

Well, at least that's for me. Those are the questions I think about every single day. Then again, these are questions I'll probably never get the answers to. But that's okay, some things are meant to be a mystery.

Okay, I know what you're thinking. What's the point of this post? Well, I guess there really isn't one. But I'm not planning on ending it anytime soon, so for the second time, if you don't want to listen to me ramble, stop reading.

Still there? Well, I'm glad I have someone.

I have a question for you: Do you see your flaws? Do you recognize them? Or do you skip over them, pretend they're non-existent? And you do have flaws, trust me. Everyone does. But flaws are what make a person.

Me... I stress over my flaws. Ha.... There's one of em. Stressing. So easy to do, yet it takes so much energy out of you...

You must also know that your positive traits outweigh your negative. They always do.

Smile when you're feeling down, that's when you most need it. No one can feel unhappy when they're smiling. It's basically impossible. Besides, it's good exercise for your face muscles. (Wow. I just got a really weird mental picture of your cheeks lifting weights. Now you're picturing it too? Good.)

Always follow your gut feeling. That feeling knows what you actually want, it knows what's buried deep inside you just waiting to get out. It's trying to let you know.

Cherish your childhood memories. Think of them often. Don't let those years slip away out of your mind, out of your memory. They're too precious. (Although, then again, if you think of them too often then they're bound to become skewed. Did you know every time you recall a memory a small portion of it is changed a little bit, and you'll never know what was changed? Things to think about...)

There has to be at least one time in your life when you dance in the rain. There just does. There's no avoiding it. I'm serious, here.

Don't help people if they don't want it, for two very important reasons.

1. If it ends up helping them, they won't appreciate it. I mean, they didn't want it in the first place.

2. Some people never get the chance to do things on their own. Let them today, let them be independent. Their own person. Let them figure it out. Who knows, maybe what they end up doing will end up being better than what you were going to say.

You're a princess. Or a prince. Maybe a king? I don't know, you get what I'm saying here. You're royalty. Treat yourself like it. But the nice kind, don't be rude and demanding. Actually, the point of me saying this, is because I wanted to say this, "Keep your head up, you don't want your crown to fall off."

Now for those of you who know me, you probably think this part may be a little biased. But it's not, I swear. Here it is: You MUST watch at least one Disney movie a year. That's all I'm asking, once a year. Disney has a way of making you feel like you don't have the world on your shoulders anymore. It probably sounds cheesy, I know, that's how you get when you're Disney obsessed. But watching a Disney movie once a year won't kill you.

Speaking of Disney, embrace who you are. Don't hide it. I know a ton of facts about Disney, because I'm a geek when it comes to that. Maybe you're a geek about rocks, or weather, or fish, or lava, or napkins, or maybe even paint. (Hey, I don't judge.) No matter what it is, embrace it. Because that's you.

Live every day like your last. Like in The Lion King... Hakuna Matata. It means no worries. Although if today was my last day I'd sure be worrying...

Dress up for Halloween. You're never to old. It's Halloween, for crying out loud. You're SUPPOSED to dress up and be weird. It's the only day of the year that's socially acceptable.

Try exotic food. Like chocolate covered ants. Who knows, maybe you'll become ant addicted.

BAKE! I don't care how terrible you are, baking always helps you to relax. It's more the smell than anything, but the baking part is nice too.

Watch a sad movie, eat ice cream, and cry. I'm not explaining this one, you can figure it out on your own.

Leave an encouraging Post - It - Note somewhere at least once. It could completely turn someones day around.

Go after your dreams, not somone's dreams for you. Those are two totally different things, and you need to live your life, not theirs.

Speaking of living through someone else's lives, please do not live through your child's. Let them turn into their own person.

Don't waste your days away being sad. That won't help anything. Accept what you can't change, and change what you can't accept. Keep that in mind.

Okay, this is starting to become excessively long so I'll wrap it up. Maybe I'll post a part 2 at somepoint? Hm... Only time will tell.

I'm going to end with a quote that I apply to my everyday life. "Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."

Bye! I hope you have a great day!

Maze

Life is a maze

Whether you know or not

You're always getting confused,

Winding up in the wrong spot.

Dead ends

And twists and turns

Sometimes you know where to go,

Others you'll never learn.

There is no map

No GPS or guide

Figure it out on your own,

There's nowhere to hide.

But the finish will offer relief,

Finally a way to end.

No more confusing roads,

No more wounds to mend.

I hope your maze is easy

A pretty straight shot

I hope you reach no confusing turns,

And finish the mission you sought.

But if you ever need help,

A way to stand up straight,

I'll be right here.

You won't even have to wait.

Lost

I'm lost.

Someone come find me.

I don't know who I am.

This isn't how it should be.

Who am I?

And why don't I know?

What should I do?

Where should I go?

Someone tell me.

Tell me my name.

Tell me what to say.

Tell me what to do.

Tell me how to play.

I'm lost in my own skin,

Where I should be at home.

If only you were with me,

I wouldn't feel so alone.

This Is Me

I've built a wall.

If you want to know me,

Knock it down.

I've made my own language.

If you want to listen to me,

Decode it.

I have a long story.

If you want to understand me,

Learn it.

I'm full of things to say.

If you want to know who I am,

Just listen.

I never hold back.

If you have a question,

Ask it.

I'm sorry if I'm not who you want me to be.

This is who I am,

Deal with it.

I've actually been working on this one for a few weeks. I just got it to the point where I think it's at least presentable. Hope it's okay :)

They Don't Care

I have tears in my eyes,

Attempting not to cry.

But no one cares.

I laugh and smile,

For the first time in a great while.

But no one cares.

My world's turned upside down,

And all I ever do is frown.

But no one cares.

I pour my heart onto a page,

Trying to rid all my rage.

But no one cares.

I lock myself in my room,

Staying trapped with the sense of doom.

But no one cares.

I change more every day,

Keeping my feelings more at bay.

But no one cares.

I've stayed alone,

Frightened right to the bone.

But no one cares.

So now I've given up,

On trying to stay tough.

Because no one cares.

Invisible

I am not here,
Don't try and find me.
I drift in silence,
Try not to bother me.

I go unnoticed,
That's how it should be.
I cause no trouble,
No need to fear me.

I don't want to be seen,
Not anymore.
Being invisible is easier,
Not such a chore.

I cause no harm,
So let me be.
Continue your life,
And I'll continue being free.