Not Okay

What's your definition
Of doing "okay"?
Is "okay" not brewing,
Not throwing your life away?

Or is "okay" just
Not breaking down,
Not bursting into tears, or
Not quite willing to drown?

Maybe "okay" would be
Smiling all the time,
Faking your happiness
And pretending you're fine.

Can you still be "okay",
When you've hit you're all time low?
When you're alone and lost,
And have nowhere to go?

This is what I'm asking,
What'd I'd like to see.
I'm not sure if it's "okay",
To keep being me.

One More Time

Thoughts of regret,
And twisted pain.
All of our memories,
Are just left in a frame.

If I could see you again,
I'd smile another time.
If I could tell you I love you,
I know I'd be fine.

But that's all just a fantasy,
That will never come true.
I don't have anything left,
I don't even have you.

I can't say I know for sure what all I'm going to put here. I guess I'll figure it out on the way... We can   figure it out together.